I changed my mind, I want the drugs.
I know I keep going too far and also
I’m trying to spare us (in my
Gray matter I imagine we are
In this together)
I want to save us or
I really don’t know I
Wish I knew where this comes from
Why I’m all hung up,
The only idea I’ve
Managed to come up with is
Maybe, it must be
Something on a basic level,
My lizard brain, something
About you I can
Taste and not taste.
And not that my life wasn’t all
Cracked to begin with but I would
Never have left without you
Or at least how you feel in my lungs.
I don’t want this to be the last time
I feel it so I left.
To come to terms with myself and to chase the tug in my hips that I hope
Someone else besides you, someone
With love left for taking,
J want to bury myself in you and maybe you’re exactly
What I need to keep me from making some big mistake.
I’m a fly in amber for you.
You’re sitting next to me,
You’re behind glass
And I feel everything anyway.